Last Chance Undies

I really don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm trying to work on becoming a better person, but I don't really know if what I'm doing is better. I'm trying my hardest to do this and it's definitely not easy. I'm not going to lie, I feel lost a majority of the time. I just hope that what I'm doing is right. Maybe all the hard work and good things I'm doing now will pay of in the end. I could use some happiness and excitement in my life. Well, I have happiness and excitement now. I'm just hoping I have it in a different, more consistent way. I've just got to keep hoping for the best! This summer, I've grown up so much! I honestly love it! I would love to be able to do more for myself and prepare myself for life. Sadly that is pretty much imposable for me because of my dad. He wants to control me his whole life!! Just kidding, I don't know that, but it sure seems like it. I just have to do what I can with this situation. I just have to do what I can with life. I need to find myself a cute boy. That's loving, caring, honest, open, cuddly, funny, exciting, accepting, and confident. You've got to be out there somewhere!! So I have really been wanting to get a job lately, but I don't know what would be a good thing for me to do. Well, I would be better off just taking whatever job I could get. I love being a loving person :) It makes me happy that I'm becoming such a good person. I'm just scared of being taken advantage of, but there will always be people looking to hurt other people in life. I just have to accept that. Oh well.