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I hit rock bottom today. I don't know where to go from here. I don't really know how I got here. Ugh.

Last Chance Undies

I really don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm trying to work on becoming a better person, but I don't really know if what I'm doing is better. I'm trying my hardest to do this and it's definitely not easy. I'm not going to lie, I feel lost a majority of the time. I just hope that what I'm doing is right. Maybe all the hard work and good things I'm doing now will pay of in the end. I could use some happiness and excitement in my life. Well, I have happiness and excitement now. I'm just hoping I have it in a different, more consistent way. I've just got to keep hoping for the best! This summer, I've grown up so much! I honestly love it! I would love to be able to do more for myself and prepare myself for life. Sadly that is pretty much imposable for me because of my dad. He wants to control me his whole life!! Just kidding, I don't know that, but it sure seems like it. I just have to do what I can with this situation. I just have to do what I can with life. I need to find myself a cute boy. That's loving, caring, honest, open, cuddly, funny, exciting, accepting, and confident. You've got to be out there somewhere!! So I have really been wanting to get a job lately, but I don't know what would be a good thing for me to do. Well, I would be better off just taking whatever job I could get. I love being a loving person :) It makes me happy that I'm becoming such a good person. I'm just scared of being taken advantage of, but there will always be people looking to hurt other people in life. I just have to accept that. Oh well.

Whack it Off

So yesterday was the start of my no more being unhappy with myself life style. I'm going to try my hardest to accept me for the way I am now, and just love myself more the better I get. I'm going to work out as often as I can and I really need to work on eating healthier. I know I can do it, I just need to stay motivated.
I've also gotten to the point where I don't deal with people's bull shit anymore. Yes I miss him, but I don't deserve to be treated the way he's treating me. I don't really understand why he's treating me this way, but there's nothing I can do to change it. So I just deal with it. People are stupid. I probably care about him more than anyone else he knows, and he just keeps pushing me away. Oh well. I really need to move on with my life. I wish I could find someone I like that likes me back. I just want to find someone sooo bad! But I will be patient. I'm a good person (at least I think I am) and I will find someone soon enough. I want to get my ass in shape and go to the beach.

sucka free

Today sucked. I ran into my ex the refuses to talk to me for reasons i don't know. I saw him in a store at the mall. I didn't want to seem like a baby, so i stayed in there and just kept my distance from him. The next thing i know, he's standing outside of the store waiting for the person he was there with. Then, i turn around and he's right behind me. It was awkward as fuck. We sort of just looked at each other for five seconds, i smiled a little bit, and then he walked away. It was a very uncomfortable situation and pretty much ruined my somewhat okay day. I felt like i was going to throw up after that so i wanted to get home and i ended up getting pulled over for speeding. I was lucky i didn't get a ticket though. It really sucks that all of this happened today because i really had no one to talk to after it happened. My one friend was sleeping and didn't wake up to my texts. My other friend was in the Dells all day today and didn't have his phone on him. Now he had to turn his phone off because its dying. I want to shoot myself in the fucking face. My life sucks.

Happy birthday to me.... fuck

Well, yay it my birthday... Sadly enough i wish it wasnt. I dont know, i hate my birthday. I just dont like celebrating it. And with the mood ive been in this whole summer, im really not excited for it. Like im sure ill do some fun things, but im just not excited. I haven't been excited for anything lately. I wish i knew how to change that, but i dont. I want to live in Chicago. I want that more than anything. That is probably one of my biggest goals right now, and I know i will be so happy when i reach it! I really hope i can!!
So today i decided i need to be more out there when it comes to meeting people. I love meeting new people and i feel if i were to be more out there, it would be easier for me to meet new people. I want to meet new people!
Okay so my birthday was half good, half bad. But in the end i feel like shit. YAY! I need to drink. Badly....

Raptor Jesus does NOT have a father.

hi. im really tired. i had a good day. it was chill. there were fireworks. food. hookah. little bit of beer. & friends. nice.

i miss you. (you'll never see this tho)

bye.

Logophilia.....

There's so much i could write about, but my mind always feels blank when i try to write. Throughout the whole day my mind is always going in a billion different directions. When i try to write, my mind draws a blank. This is something that really bothers me. I honestly can't think right now and i feel so empty. Two of my really good friends are drunk right now so i don't really have anyone to talk too. I can deal with that though. I don't know. I'm so lost and confused about everything. That's normal for teenagers though, right? I miss my friend so much. I messed things up so bad with him. Well he's my ex and he used to be my best friend, but now we don't talk. i absolutely hate it. I'm miserable because of it. I could tell you a lot more about the situation, but talking about it will just make me feel worse. Maybe i will another time. I'm to caring of a person sometimes. Oh well. My mind feels so fucked right now haha.

                  I want sooooo badly!!! :)

Accept me into your succulent hearts... or I shall tear them out, In peace.

Raptor Jesus roamed the Earth circa 90,000,000,000-65,000,000,000 BHC (Before Human Christ). He was born when God Himself was still only a teenager. His execution is thought to be the cause of the extinction of the dinosaurs, as God was mad at the Romans for aiding in His son's death twice. He earned a bachelor's degree in microelectronic engineering at RIT. Raptor Jesus went on to earn his PhD in aerospace engineering at Georgia Tech. Later, Raptor Jesus got bored, so he went on to receive his CPA certification in the state of New Jersey. His academic career was constantly challenged by his ladysmanship.He is now working in hooters and will soon be the manager in a later period.

Olly Olly Oxen Free!!

hi there. my name is Danielle. i like music, clothes, cars, friends, laughing, reading self-help books, cute boys, beaches, learning stuff, sun, nature, shopping, running, cheese, Chicago, helping people, flowers, dancing, sneezing, being funny, movie that i wish were real, brushing my teeth, my hair, being healthy, swimming, sledding, being honest, dogs, doodling, money, following through with plans, ice cream, being happy (sadly enough this isn't often), summer, pictures, looking at art, watching shows about people with addictions, working out, cats, funny movies, flirting, tanning in my back yard, dubstep, my phone, funny people, cute movies about love that usually make me cry, driving around, plums, cuddling with someone i like, beer, kissing, taking showers, pudding, nail polish, organic bananas, believing that i'll find someone that will truly love me, facebook, my best friend, hugging people i miss, people that are ticklish, being warm, fire, Mexican food, good memories, texting, bunnies, becoming a better person, math, Christmas lights, becoming friends with people i never expected to talk to, the lack of mosquito's in the winter, going to new places, making someone feel better about themselves, inspirational things, my best friends cat, hot guys, just food in general, bike rides, meeting new people, the smell of old books, raspberry iced tea, being young, playing basketball when its fun, taking walks, and most of all just being myself. im not exactly sure what type of person i am, i don't really know that much about myself, but im trying to figure these things out. i just want to live my life as happy as i can be.