I don't know just where I'm going. But I'm going to try for the kingdom, if I can. 'Cause it makes me feel like I'm a man. When I put a spike into my vein. And I'll tell ya, things aren't quite the same. When I'm rushing on my run. And I feel just like Jesus' son. And I guess that I just don't know. And I guess that I just don't know.

You might think I hate you or want nothing to do with you anymore. That's not true though. You were just bringing me down. I couldn't take you telling me who I should and shouldn't talk to. I have a hard time finding your way of "messing around" funny. Your jokes would always hurt me, even though they were just jokes. I take things that people say about me to heart, even if they're jokes. I'm a sensitive person and I don't like that I'm sensitive. I couldn't take how you would say such mean things about someone I really care about, that makes me so happy. I understand you tired so hard to make me happy. That's the thing though. The harder you try the less happy I end up being. I've had this problem for a long time. I wish you would have saw this but I'm pretty simple. If I am unhappy for a day or a period of time, don't go all out to make me happy. Just let me be, and I'll be happy eventually. So the less you try to obviously make me really happy, the happier I'll be. I know it doesn't make much sense, but it's pretty easy to get. I really do appreciate you trying so hard to make me happy though. I just wish you would have saw that you didn't need to do that. I still care about you, I really do. I just don't like the person your becoming. All you care about is what will make girls like you. You are changing yourself for girls to like you. Why? You are never going to find someone truly special, that you are meant to be with. You know why you wont, because you're not yourself. You change yourself to get other people to like you. Why don't you understand why this is bad. You're putting yourself in the same position you were in at the beginning of the school year last year. You're never going to find true friends being someone your not. I've told you this so many times. It's your life though, so you can do what you want. Become who you want to be.