I Wish It Was Easier To Smile During Moments Like These

I just want to cry right now. But that doesn't matter right now. I'm trying to ignore it. It's winter now, but there's only been a little snow. Like hardly any snow, but there is still snow. It was a very pretty sight to wake up to in the morning. I just sneezed and I'm watching Superbad. I'm not a huge fan of this movie, but I'm watching it anyways. I want Starbucks so bad right now. I'm craving it like crazy. I think I'm fat. So I'm going on a diet and I'm going to start working out more even though it's basketball session. I feel really lost right now and sort of empty inside but that also doesn't matter right now. I don't want this to be an emo blog post!! It probably already is haha. I got a BUNCH of clothes today for only like $121, which is like awesome!!!! Gosh I got a lot of clothes today. That made me happy :) I miss always having money and being able to just go shopping whenever I wanted. I'm so scared of growing up, but at the same time I can't wait to get the fuck out of my house and start living on my own. I just want to be able to take care of myself and do things for myself. I'm almost there though! I keep getting closer and closer to that! Well.... yaaaaa. I'm done venting and shit I guess.